Pob

An epiphany of sorts occurred as I conversed with my Brother a few moments ago: that epiphany being that; if it hadn't been that we were connected by fate and blood, I would surely not have wasted a single second of my time speaking with him. He would have been nothing more than some random guy talking bollocks and acting like a chump, soon forgotten. As it is, on the back of, ya know, family duty and that kinda shit, I have periodically taken the time to speak to him on the phone and occasionally on Windows Live, in an effort to see beyond his flaws and form something of a relationship with him. However, it has become evermore clear over time and through continual attempts that this is an utterly pointless escapade. The inebriated version of my Brother, which I have had the 'pleasure' of conversing with on several occasions, is even more unpleasant. On these occasions the nature of his underlying thought processes show themselves to be as warped, emotionally-fueled and simplistic as I have always suspected them to be.

I'm tired of the endless conveyor belt of assumptions and childish belittlings, bored of his penchant for ending every other sentence with one or more exclamation marks, embarrassed by his child-like histrionics, so much so that I've decided to cut all ties with him, once and for all. There's just no value to be had in having a relationship with someone I neither like or respect; nothing to be gained but endless spewdom, needless drama and strife--which as most of you will know, is not something I am the slightest bit interested in. God knows there are far more important things in life than this kind of banal triviality, things I truly look forward to exploring.

Ultimately I would love to have been blessed with a Brother I could speak with on a level; someone who I respected and enjoyed my time with. I only ask for someone with a developed brain--but alas, it appears that even this is too much to ask for. The great casino in the sky has seen fit to grant me the sibling equivalent of Pob-- I guess I have outstanding debts.

He's not a bad person, just majorly underdeveloped and retarded because of it. This wouldn't be so bad if he realized this was the case, but he doesn't. On the contrary, he evidently believes he is a bona fide adult, a good 'onest father, going about his life in the archetypal 'correct' way, and that having a wife and 2.5 kids, a dog and an exhausting full-time job, and spending your free time engaged in 'fun hobbies' is sufficient, and something to be proud of. God you can almost sense his chest puffing out when he lists his 'achievements'.

Anyway, here's the chatlog, unedited and unchanged:

Andy says (00:02):
Thanks for the b'day wishes bro!!!
Mindstruct says (00:02):
Actually I was just about to wish you a happy birthday
Mindstruct says (00:02):
hence me appearing on here
Andy says (00:03):
Hey well fuck all ive got from Mum!!!
Mindstruct says (00:03):
I had a dream about you last night
Mindstruct says (00:03):
i forget the details
Andy says (00:03):
What I died!!
Mindstruct says (00:03):
No... i forget what it was about. I only know you had a considerable part to play
Andy says (00:04):
Well Mum hasnt said a happy 30th and Dad - Well he can rot in hell!! And you can tell him that if you like!!
Mindstruct says (00:05):
Lol, there's no middle ground with you, is there? People are either the best, or the worst. They're either awesome, or complete bastards
Andy says (00:05):
I can't be fucked with immediate family life cos you lot cant and dont give a shit!!
Mindstruct says (00:06):
Yes yes; it's all OUR fault
Mindstruct says (00:06):
lol
Andy says (00:06):
I have always made middle ground and been willing to make as such!! But I guess its since they have known my fucked up soul!!
Mindstruct says (00:07):
yes. Your soul is fucked.
Andy says (00:07):
I guess so!!!.... So tell Grandad that when you see him!!.....
Mindstruct says (00:07):
I'll keep that in mind next time we speak
Andy says (00:08):
And that'll be never!!
Andy says (00:08):
I talk to him all the time and he speaks to me!!!
Mindstruct says (00:08):
Oh?
Mindstruct says (00:08):
Does he offer you financial advice?
Mindstruct says (00:09):
(Have you been drinking?)
Andy says (00:09):
He's more than me that ever you lot will ever know!! But hey you want what you want and you go for it - Cos you will get it and we all know what you as a non worker and no life wants!!!
Mindstruct says (00:10):
That first sentence makes no sense
Mindstruct says (00:11):
I still can't believe as a 30 year old that you are in the practice of belittling other people in order to big yourself up. Seriously, you need to get past that.
Andy says (00:11):
Drink lets see - YES - It's my 30th!! A reason to celebrate! I have a family who love and care about me - Lets hope My so-called Mother and father dont let you go - Cos you will have fuck-all!!!
Andy says (00:11):
Oh you with Mummy and Daddy!!
Mindstruct says (00:12):
Sigh. We are so, so different...
Andy says (00:12):
You always have been tied to em!!
Andy says (00:12):
Thank fuck for that!!!#
Mindstruct says (00:12):
It boggles my mind, really it does.
Mindstruct says (00:12):
Bye.
Andy says (00:12):
Bye
Andy says (00:12):
Yeah you cant see past it
Mindstruct says (00:13):
And I mean that for a very, VERY long time. One of the good things about alcohol is that it can reveal the true nature of a person. We'll speak again perhaps, when you, or if, you've grown up.